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I'm reading about habits. It's something I do--read about habits and schedules and stuff. I do it when it's time to re-engage with life. I'm wanting to get back into things. There's been six months of my life that feel lost--I was surviving, plodding along, grieving...
read moreYou want vicissitudes?
I'll give you some vicissitudes. (Alternative title: Another Really Horrible Thing That Happened to my Family) Life is... terrible. Have you noticed? It is also beautiful. The last few months have been an incredible case in point of these two realities. A horrible...
read more“The Swan”–a tribute to the victims of the Orlando shooting
My mommy was laid to rest two weeks ago tomorrow. I woke up to birdsong early on the morning of her funeral. The birds were so loud, they woke me up at dawn--way too early. I couldn't get back to sleep. I felt sick to my stomach. Jenni, Chris and I (the first three...
read moreShe’s Gone.
She's gone. After more than 10 long years of suffering, and 12 days of being largely unconscious and not taking food or water, my sweet mother Michele Mousley Weed passed away this morning at about 6:00am PST from complications of Early Onset Alzheimer's disease. She...
read moreThe truth about the Mormon Mental Health Association
If you have ever contemplated looking for a Mormon therapist, or are interested in mental health as it relates to Mormonism or issues around sex addiction and pornography addiction, this post will be of interest to you. If not, this might not be your thing, and that's...
read moreLamb of God
I'm doing something very new to me. This Sunday, and the Sunday after, I'm singing a solo in an oratorio called "Lamb of God." I'm playing the character of Thomas. I've never, until three weeks or so ago, had a voice lesson. No training. Just a lot of singing loudly...
read moreWinds of Change that Change Nothing
Photo attribution: here I am feeling the winds of change here at The Weed. But that's nothing new. I feel the winds of change over here regularly. And then I write about those winds of change, becoming all meta, and then 80% of the time, nothing actually...
read moreTrip to Rexburg + I won a thing!!! + Aging. (It happens.)
In September or October or some month in the past I spontaneously took a trip down to Idaho with a former early-morning seminary student of mine (shout out, Spencer Transier) who was going there to forge his destiny and stuff. I was going there because my parents had...
read moreAt the outset of a really big year…
This year feels big to me. I'm halfway through being 35. Maybe that's why. If there is any youth in me left, I feel like it's about to eked out in the next few years, like the last blobs of toothpaste in an almost empty tube. I still look almost young, but my hair has...
read moreBirthday
This is another sad post about my mom. Today's her birthday. BTW, I have another post I'm working on about my trip to Rexburg, which was a really great experience. But before I finish that, I felt the desire to post what I wrote on my Mom's Facebook page today. It is...
read moreStrange, the things that bring out the grief.
A sentence, transcribing my mom's journal. She says "I'm going to miss Relief Society, but I'll be back soon enough. . ." She is 25. I've just been born. She has been called to be in Primary, and she is excited to be working with the kids for the first time in years,...
read moreSometimes Saints Swear
Hey! I'm posting again like the champion blogger that I was always destined to be. YAY!!!!! I have a few things to post in response to my last entry, because apparently I can't blog about anything except blogging itself. That's how the professionals do it, you see......
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