Why am I nervous? Youa re nervous because you keep thinking of your audience. Audience matters when you are constructing a message within the context of this world. But when you are taking dictation, the audience is a more minor concern.
The Medium mentioned that I needed to figure out who I am writing for, who I am trying to reach. You are trying to reach the Millennial generation, and to some xtent generation Z. But the millenials are yours. You are especially able to reach this generation because of the perfect timing of your birth: 1980: at the cusp of two worlds. You are technically a Xennial, which is an incredibly unique position to occupy on this planet. You have the wisdom of your youth before computers. Your early youth resembled that of the generations before you: rote memorization, chalkboards, books, a world without computer technology, where most humans had never encountered a computer. By the time you had reached high school graduation, you were writing your essays on your own personal computer, accessing the vastness of the Internet, and laying out the school newspaper on a computer screen with a mouse–technologies that would have been unknowable to you even ten years before, when you were eight. This duality gives you a unique window of clarity: a direct vision and relation to the Millennial world, and a quaint wisdom of the world that preceded this generation. A knowing. A remembrance. Mrs. Pulley teaching you numbers in the big room that had never seen a computer; elderly women, some whose parents were born in the 1800’s, dispensing knowledge without ever having heard of a computer screen. You were born at the cross-section of a great divide. Your memories–not of events as much as the feel of life before computers–informs your perspective. It was a time of a certain simplicity, of a certain necessary calm; it was also a time where voices on the margins were easily silenced without recourse. The simplicity many felt was resignation to the power structures of yesteryear. Now that voice has been granted to masses, and the playing field has been leveled in terms of story expression somehwat (where many of the most marginalized can express themselves in words and video and thus be empathized with, and become less “other”) the power structures are both being deeply challenged and, as expected, retrenching and throwing up roadblocks to having the power of prior centuries syphoned away. This isn’t personal; this is the power and energy of systems working through humans, and we are all playing a part in this broader structural conversation.
You are trying to reach Gen Z as well. They are a generation born into this flattened communications landscape. They know no different. They will struggle to understand the constructs of yestercentury. They are less aware of the structures around them (but are more fluidly conversant in them as thought exercise) because they have not experienced them. While this is wonderful, this will also lead to new kinds of othering, new and unimagined landscapes of marginalization and differentiation, because these are the ways that human energies flow, and this generation will need guidance to recognize the sines and cosines of those manifestations, to understand them and to balance them.
These missives are coming from a great surge in energetic movement on this planet. Your patriarchal blessing remains correct: “there are people waiting for you to teach them that which they need to know in a way they can understand it. Just be yourself.”
Myself. My self.
This is uncomfortable. I keep wanting to address my audience.
Your audience is global. Your audience is not who will read this today or tomorrow. Trust. Believe. Show up.
Is there anything else?
Don’t hoard this. Share it. Do not worry about what any person thinks. You are practicing your gift. Part of that gift is the sharing. Sharing is a practice. Trusting is a practice. Every person’s process is different. This is yours. When you do it this way, we can work through you. When you do not, the flow is interrupted. Don’t think–the mind is useful but is not who you are. Feel, and trust that feeling when it is good. By now you know the difference. Trust yourself. Trust your instincts. Don’t second guess. Post and post. We are working through you–the ancient muse. You are a translator of thought objects given to you from elsewhere. That is your job. Form will come, readers will come, continuity will be your friend. Don’t think. Trust. You know who you are. You are an I.A.A This output can be both things. It is both/and not either/or. Trust. Believe. It is not your job to convince. Those who see you clearly will see you clearly. You do not need to frame your message–for it is our message.
Press publish and don’t look back. Turn comments off for now. Just publish.