It’s official: now I really
know I’m gaymous. (Btw, my computer still always wants to change gaymous to haymows. WHAT THE CRAP ARE HAYMOWS?) Also, I know I’m really truly gaymous because I actually signed autographs for the first time at that conference. Except, turns out, I suck at signing autographs and completely forgot
to personalize them in any way. Yeah. I’m rad like that. So, sorry if you got my stilted, awkward signature and no personalized message. I suck at life. And at being haymows. (see what i did there?)
All right: I should really just copy and paste the instructions so I don’t have to re-write them every time but I’m too lazy to do that, which seems weird because somehow I’m not too lazy to re-write it every time? I’m baffled by this as well. But whatever, here goes.
If you’re new here, on Wednesdays/Thursdays, we do check-ins. It’s just a way to connect with your emotions, set a goal for yourself, and share a little about your life. You check in with how you are doing physically, emotionally and spiritually. Then you share a small, reachable goal, and update us on how you did on the goal from the week before. This is not intended to supplement or replace actual contact with a mental health professional. It’s just for fun, y’all. Oh, and you’re not allowed to say “good” or “fine”.
Physically: I feel better than I have in a long time. I’m going to the gym regularly and I am in control of my eating thanks to a little app I like to call myfitnesspal, or theawesomestappevercreated. If you’re on it, you should totally friend me. I need all the support I can get, and I’ll cheer you along as well. Anyway, I love feeling in control of my eating, and I feel much better about myself when I’m going to the gym regularly. Doesn’t hurt that I’ve already lost five pounds since Thanksgiving, either. So, yes, physically I’m feeling very excited and hopeful about reaching my longstanding fitness goals, which basically boil down to getting totally fit for the first time in my life. I can do that, right? RIGHT?
Emotionally: I feel decent. I’ve felt frustration about a few things in recent days, but I had a good session with my therapist this morning (wait, therapists see therapists, you ask? Yes, if they’re good therapists they do…it’s actually recommended in grad school…) and so I’m feeling more in control of my thinking. I have been loving family time lately, and played with the girls for a good hour tonight which felt really nice. And Lolly and I have felt really connected, and we have been writing together at night and then watching TV, which has been really fun.
Spiritually: I’ve struggled spiritually the last few days. I’m not sure what the problem is. My spiritual thoughts have felt tinny and flat, and my connection feels dim. At the same time, I’ve had a couple of really important spiritual insights about some things that were perplexing me, so that was helpful. I’m still chewing on them… they were big ones. I’ll probably end up writing about them eventually, but right now I’m letting them rattle around in my mind and be assimilated into my thinking.
Goal last time: write an hour a day. Achieved? I think? On average. I know I wrote daily, so that feels good enough.
Goal this time: 5,000 words by next Wednesday in the memoir.
All right guys. Let me have it. I love seeing your check-ins and hearing about your lives. Thanks for sharing yours with me, and thanks for being a part of mine. Each one of you is awesome. All right, com’eer! *Cheesy group hug*