I’m having a minor episode of meltdown.
Everyone Shhhhhhhhh *puts finger over your mouth* It’s okay. This happens to me from time to time. Basically what is going on is that I’m totally overwhelmed by the workings of my life and I find myself unable to do important things. Like return any emails. To anyone. About anything. Including my little brother who is a missionary in Tennessee. Or Important People. Or really awesome readers who send me really awesome messages of support or who ask me totally legitimate questions. Or basically anybody. I also find myself unable to do things like: manage my schedule; not eat the universe and every dairy product in my fridge (esp. cheese and ice cream); take 15 minutes to sign up for my licensing exam (oh, that little thing? No big deal! Who needs to maintain credentials?); respond to people about really, really important stuff like blurbs for book covers or TV shows; get to work when I need to get to work; anything whatsoever that has to do with my church calling; etc.
The few things I have been able to keep in tact in order to survive are: I successfully see my clients; I eat (way too much) food; I sleep sometimes; Lolly and I watch a TV show every night together to reconnect; I eat dinner with the family every night.
I feel like a complete mess.
Anyhow, I think that’s a perfect reason to do a check in. Feel free to do one also. (I think I need a caveat stating that checking in on The Weed is not meant to replace or supplement therapy with a licensed professional. It’s just for fun y’all.)
Rules. You check in with how you are physically, emotionally and spiritually. You make a commitment and talk about last week’s commitment (if you had one). You are not allowed to say “good” or “fine” for any item.
Physically: I feel a little crappy. My blind eye hurts. It bugs me from time to time, with a weird headache behind it. I also feel blergh in general. Not sure how to describe it, but it’s not “good” so it counts. Also, I ran several times this week, but I really need to do some weight training.
Emotionally: I feel overwhelmed. Life feels like complete chaos to me right now. I just told someone that I feel like I’m atop a racehorse that’s on crack, just watching my life course past at high speed. As previously stated, I feel like I’m neglecting important things. And the craziness feels like it’s increasing rather than decreasing.
Spiritually: I feel like my spirituality is yet another casualty to the crazy. I feel connected when I connect, but I also feel inconsistent and like I could use some good prayer and meditation. I did end up enjoying conference a lot, and thought there were some very apropos messages that were very helpful (and strangely work in tandem, as often seems to magically happen.)
Commitment from last time was to write in the memoir for 15 hours. I achieved this.
Commitment for this week is to write for 10 hours. At least.
Side-note: one of the things I forgot to clarify about commitments is that they should be attainable. So if you haven’t exercised in a year, setting a goal for 6 workouts might not be a great idea. But one or two? Totally appropriate.
All right guys. It’s Friday night. You’re all having fun. I’m about to go have fun. And I’m about to eat pie. So life can’t be that out of control, right?
If it suits your fancy, hit me up with another check-in, and let me know how things went this week. Hope you are all doing well.
Not editing this sucker! *presses publish*