This morning was the first normal morning I think I’ve had since June, 7th 2012.
This was a really good thing. Until it got problematic.
You’ll see what I mean.
I didn’t get to bed on time last night. I fell asleep at about 12:30, but for some reason, I woke up at about 6:00. I got up, and milled around, and then an idea hit me as if were the most profound possibility ever generated by a human mind: what if I were to actually start my day at this hour?
So, I did.
I went on a run and enjoyed the Seattle summer clouds and overcast skies. (Seriously, Seattle? Can we get any days of summer this summer?)
And then I got back and got ready. And then I ate breakfast with the girls–eggs and toast–and had a really, really good morning.
And then, like any other normal day–like the days back before June 7th 2012–I got to my office and sat down and…
and couldn’t concentrate on a single flipping thing for hours.
I don’t know if you know this, but the very first blog post on this blog is something of a “coming out” post in and of itself (though at the time I had no idea where things would eventually lead).
I came out as an adult who has the inattentive sub-type of ADHD. It’s a heartbreaking disease, filled with being late to almost everything, making really annoying tapping noises so loud that people in meetings actually lean over and say “could you please stop that?”, and lots and lots of time–obscene amounts of hours–sitting there trying to get yourself to do something you know you have to do but for some reason can’t. (If you want to read some of the horror stories, click on the archive and go back to the first four months this thing existed. And get out your Kleenexes, because it’s a sad, sad tale of sadness.)
It’s pretty much exactly like having cancer, except without the extreme pain, horrific trauma, need for drastic life-saving measures like excising flesh or chemo-therapy, or anything remotely resembling anything that’s actually “hard” or “challenging” or “worthy of being complained about.”
So yeah. If you’re being “technical” it’s nothing like cancer, or conditions that actually matter. But it is really, really annoying, and it affects my life a lot. (A whole lot more than being same-sex attracted does, if you’re keeping score.)
Anyway, for some reason, now that the dust has settled and I had some extra time because a couple of clients rescheduled, today was the day when I thought to myself “Gee whiz I’m having a hard time concentrating on… anything.”
And then I was like, “Oh yeah. There’s a reason for that.”
I’ve been so incredibly busy with stuff–so distracted, really–that I hadn’t had a chance to do a normal day. And then doing a normal day like today, a day where I had a good start on things and should have been really productive, things kinda fell apart.
So, this post is a plea for help. I want to pick your brains for good ideas so I don’t fail at my jobs now that a lot more has been put on my plate.
How do you keep yourselves organized and on task? Do you use apps on your phone? Planners? Do you have a book to recommend to me? Do you have a calendar that you can’t live without? Any thoughts or ideas? Because I’ll be honest, I’m open to anything. Even unconventional stuff. Like visiting a Shaman. Or crack cocaine. (<—-this is a lie.)
Let me know of your tips. The one or two that I like the most I’ll feature in my next post. (But I’m sure many, many will be very helpful, so don’t be afraid to share.)
Thanks in advance.
Also, I wanted to let you know that tomorrow I’ll be on the radio in Utah. (In case you were wondering, I just minimized this screen to look up the time of the interview I’m about to mention, and 25 minutes later found myself tweeting about the weather without realizing I had gotten distracted. SERIOUSLY.) It’s going to be on (I JUST GOT DISTRACTED IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS PARAGRAPH AGAIN. You guys, I wish to the stars in heaven I was joking. Somebody come and stand next to me and point me back to this screen anytime I try to do something else. I beg you.)… anyway, it’s KHQN 1480 AM at 5pm Mountain time, and will simulcast through live streaming video on healingtalkradio.com.
Over and out.