Seriously, who needs to be able to walk up a flight of stairs?
I sure don’t! Now that I go to the gym and my body has decided on mutiny, I’ve come to realize that there are a lot of really “extra” things I was accustomed to in my pre-gym days that are completely unnecessary in day-to-day life. Like lifting my computer bag. Or carrying my children. Or typing without my hands shaking. Or today, walking. This is why if you see me walking today, you’ll note that I resemble a hobbled horse that should probably be shot in the head to cut down on food expenses.
(Note: please, nobody shoot me in the face. It’s one of my deepest fears. Along with getting my face ripped off by an orangutan and ever having to open the hood of my car in public for any reason. (Obviously I’m the most rational person you’ve ever met online. (A very rational person who is addicted to parentheses.)))
Yeah, it’s true. I’m an official gym-rat. Or, probably more accurately, a gym hamster. I’m more accustomed to living in a cage on the dresser of a 10-year-old girl who plays with me daily and hand feeds me carrots and sunflower seeds and has affectionately named me Snowflake than living on the streets and eating scraps and carrying plague-inducing viruses like a rat. But whatever. Now I’m transitioning into a gnarly rat who works out like a beast instead of prissily running on a hamster wheel, and most days it makes me want to suck my thumb and cry like the little sissy hamster I am.
It’s been a rough couple of weeks. But, I’m happy to report: I haven’t died yet. I’m also happy to report: I have lost fat and gained muscle. And I’m also happy to report: I get to eat for the first time in my life.
Let me explain.
So, a couple of weeks ago, I went in for my first personal training session with an actual personal trainer. (Seeing an actual personal trainer does not, by default, absolve you, yes you, from the responsibility of being my personal trainer just so we’re clear. And by the way, thank you very much for all the amazing feedback on that post. A lot of that stuff really helped me, if for no other reason than to feel that there were people out there, people I didn’t know, supporting me on my journey.)
Anyway, for our first training session, I was envisioning something a little bit like this:
Me: (Makes a grunt resembling a mix between the cry of a dying hyena and the high-pitched yelp of a wounded baby) There! (Breathless) I did it!
Brandon: Excellent job picking that 5lb. weight off the rack. Now what you’re gonna wanna do is lift the weight high above your head in an exercise called…
Me: Do you have any smelling salts?
Me: You know, to revive me with when I pass out. Or, oh! I know, how about adrenaline to syringe into my heart like they did in Pulp Fiction? Ya got any of that?
Brandon: Josh, you’re not actually going to die here. Just try lifting the weight… up. At all.
Me: (strains with all his might) I can’t. (slumps in defeat)
Brandon: Nice try. Next time we’ll just have you do the motion while holding a piece of paper. Unless that ends up being too heavy, in which case we’ll locate a single bacterium for you to try. If that doesn’t work, we’ll isolate an atom.
Me: (timidly) Can you split the atom in half if it’s too heavy?
Brandon: Um, that would be nuclear fission, or the process by which bombs are made that have the capacity to kill off all of humanity in a fiery apocalypse.
Me: …so that’s a yes?
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Instead, though, something different happened, and I’m still trying to wrap my mind around what is going on.
When I got to the gym, one of the trainers there was like “oh, are you here for the biggest gainer?” Turns out, they were having a contest for the “biggest loser” and the “biggest gainer.” And a trainer looked at me, and assumed that I would be coming to the gym for the sole purpose of gaining weight.
I’m still having trouble wrapping my mind around this concept, but apparently I have a build that’s well suited for… muscle. Because when I met with Brandon, he was like, “I think, before anything else, you need to focus on gaining muscle.”
“Sure,” I said to him, my mind spinning. At this point I was verging a psychological melt-down. I am at the gym to lose weight because I am overweight and I am working with a trainer to make sure I am able to really lose that weight and he is looking me in the eyes and saying, “All right little hamster. Time to gain some weight” and I have no idea how to process this and it feels like math or something hard.
Me: But what about my excess body fat?
Brandon: We’ll focus on burning that off after you’ve bulked up and your metabolism is more effective.
Me: … So what you’re saying is, if I gain muscle, then a Magical Unicorn of Weightloss will come visit me, deem me muscular enough, and poke me with its horn in such a way that my tummy disappears?
Brandon: What I’m saying is that muscle will burn more calories than no muscle. And if you’re wanting to lose fat, having more muscle will help you do it.
Me: That makes sense I guess? So… what should I eat?
Brandon:Well, you’re gonna want to eat clean calories, and you’ll be wanting to hit between 3 and 4.
Me: (determined look) I’ve never scaled back that much before. The lowest I’ve ever done in a day is 500 but that was a starvation diet that was supposed to use pregnancy hormones which didn’t work–it was a bad idea. I think I can do 400 though…
Brandon: No, between 3 and 4 thousand calories.
Me: *wets himself*
Brandon: You’re gonna be eating a lot.
Me: (Flabbergasted) But… how will I not become Jabba the Hut huge again?
And like a butterfly emerging from a cocoon, my hamster soul is being transformed into a beastly, gnarly, gym-loving rat that is starting to look muscular and can also eat thousands of calories a day and not gain any weight at all. So, in other words, all of my dreams are coming true. Huzzah! (Of course those calories are not always fun calories, like ice cream, donuts, and french fries. They’re more like salmon and chicken and vegetables and chicken and cottage cheese and rice and beans and chicken and protein shakes and chicken and hard boiled eggs and chicken. But still. 3,000 calories!)
Stay tuned to see the transformation! Unless Brandon is wrong or lying. In which case, stay tuned to personally meet Jabba the Hut!