Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed of an equal or greater benefit.–Napoleon Hill
ADHD-I is not an easy thing for anyone to confront. (Neither is depression, or alcoholism, or obesity, or divorce, or grief, or any one of many many potential challenges in life–I definitely don’t mean to imply that it’s any more or less difficult than any other challenge.) However, I have found the above quote to contain truth.
I can’t say that I have fully achieved what I want to achieve in my personal pursuit of organization, calendaring, and punctuality. But I can say that having ADHD-I, and trying day after day to combat its effects, has yielded many positive things in my life. Some of those things are easy to see–college degrees, awards, etc. Others are less apparent, and are more internal.
I haven’t gotten to where I want to be. I feel that there is much left for me to do. However, I truly believe that by the end of my life, I will have overcome this stuff. I feel like there is this thing inside me that will not stop until I have mastered this component of my life.
It’s why I get up every day desiring to work as hard as I can at the things I do.
It’s why I will never stop trying to structure my life in a way that works for me–item by item, little by little, getting things under control.
It’s why I write here.
It’s why I will never ever stop pursuing my dreams, even the really terrifying ones, until I see them realized–even though the odds are stacked against me, and anybody who knows what having ADHD-I means might say “listen, maybe such and such is not for you…”
I refuse to accept that answer. And the above quote is, at least in part, the reason why.
Have a nice Sunday night, and Happy Valentine’s day.