I definitely just squandered some of my writing time before I have to go to work. (I work as a Spanish speaking group facilitator teaching marriage classes based on the research of John Gottman.) However, I’m here now, and I’m doing my thing.
I don’t really know how to explain it, but writing this blog seems to be doing something good for me. When I opened it in the first place, I intended for it to be a place to kind of list my daily tasks (perhaps in just unpublished posts) and then try to hold myself accountable to them. But, it immediately became something else, and I’m really glad. Somehow talking about the inattentive subtype in this way–addressing it day by day and defining it and pinning it down and telling my story, knowing people could read it–really has affected my functioning.
This week was particularly good for me. Where I might have been distracted in past weeks and months, somehow focusing on getting a post out there has added an edge of diligence to my life, which has then allowed me to do other things in a more organized way. I don’t know if this makes sense to anybody but myself, and have no idea if it will last, but the point is that I’m excited because I really feel like this thing is helping me.
I’ve been toying with the idea of setting an ambitious little goal for myself. A goal like: write a post every day for an entire year. Would we say that that’s little too ambitious? Perhaps. But I’d really like to do something like that, and at the moment I’m filled with hope that I could make that happen.
I think for the moment, I’m going to do something a little more attainable and see how it goes. It’s not that I don’t want to “think big” or that I don’t believe in myself. I think taking smaller bites on the way to something as huge as a year of consistency might be the better way.
So, today marks my seventh post–one week. Let’s see if I can do it for a month. One whole calendar month. Every single day. So, March 7th, you are my goal. When I get to you, I will have to find a way to celebrate.
Maybe I’ll take a day off.